Swimming Meet

Went for my formation swimming meet for the 1st time. Haha... I took part in 50m Breast Stroke, 50m FreeStyle, 50m Backstroke, 50m Butterfly.

Have completed my breast stroke. Qualified for the freestyle, the backstroke dunnoe is final or heats.. Anyway, I find the meet alittle bit cock up..

For the timing wise.. i sms to baby.. ask her to keep for me.. coz i dun wanna look at it as it might affect my performace for the other events.. Haha.. Surprisingly, i did very badly in my breaststroke.. which i have expected to have a chance in the top 5 at least.. but in the end i came in 8th place.. Disappointed tot however, I have myself to blame.. coz i have really negleceted my breaststroke..

Since the start of the new year, i been focusing more on my back,free and butterfly.. I guess this is the results of over confidence. Something that my sec literature teacher has warned me about before.

However, I cam in 4th in the freestyle and backstroke. I'm quite happy with it. WIth my performace.. Thinking back, i think i swam really lousy in my breaststroke.. Must think of ways to improve on it..

Tml, is 50m butterfly.. I dun aim high.. Coming in the top 3 has never been in my mind. I went for this meet with a mentality that is.. "Just enjoy myself.. Experience the feeling of a competitive swimmer in a competition."

Honestly, i wanted all these experience for my students. In future, I'm going to coach competitive swimming. That's my aim. Surely I can share with them the experiences and the stress and pressure. Crowd Pressure. I like to share my experience with kids and see that they benefit from it.

WHen I was young, no one has ever shared this with me expect one of my swimming coach. I can still remember how he coached me and help me made my way to a sliver in breaststroke.

Hence, I'm quite disappointed in not achieving well in breaststroke today.

Well, I only got myself to blame coz I have not been training hard for this meet. hehe...

My objective is the biathlon. I wanna enjoy the experience and complete it. To me, Winning is not everything. Winning is just a form of recognition. You might win today, but u will not win forever.

Just like in gambling, you can win today, but one day u will sure lose, n when u lose u might lose everything( heard this from Channel U) hee..

What I wanted from this meet was just the experience, I had the experience when I was in pri 6. But after so long.. it seems to cool down.. so i wanna heat up that experience again.. If I win something, its a bonus. But I guess I have alreadi won myself in terms of timing. I'm proud of myself.

Next up, after this meet will be Biathlon.. ANd here I comes Biathlon~!~

Tired

Had my IPPT on friday. Now I'm feeling really really tired. Tot I passed, but i will still be taking my standing board jump again to achieve my sliver. Came in 1st for my 2.4km run, however my timing was not quite wat i had expected. 11:21. tot during my BMT, it was 11:30. But I been training hard for it. However, I'm still quite happy with it.

Had a little quarrel wif baby. Not quarrel, just being unhappy about her. Perhaps its my fault. But ever since dad ask me to go for that operation, it has been bothering me. When ever i hear abt it, think abt it, or i see it, I feel so upset, I mean.. its like, I will tell myself.. damm it..

Maybe I didnt tell baby abt it.. but its really bothering me. I tried not to think abt it.. but still.. haiz.. whenever anything abt it comes.. it just piss me off... I simply dont have e mood.

Supposingly to go chinatown wif her, promised her b4 that i will bring her there. Its a sat, its a day for both of us to be together. But... over there,will be her sis n her aunt. If in e 1st place when we say that sat is meant for us to be together, den why get her sis n aunt? I'm very angry when i 1st heard it.. but i try to please her...

After watching memoirs of geisha, i'm just too tired to do anything. I'm so hungry, all i request was to haf dinner wif her. N.. haiz.. forget it.. I'm not in a good mood now..

Musical For e very 1st time.

(Pic source from http://www.artscentral.sg/sceneinsingapore/thisweek.htm#kungfu)


Yupz.. went for my 1st musical for the very 1st time after living for almost 2 decades. It was Kungfu musical by Robin Leong. Well, he owns his own production company and sort of that. Called Chi` International or something like that. Just know that tis musical was produced by him n him company can liaoz. haha. However, I must say.. for a 1st timer going to the esplanade, it was really a real eye opener for me!

Ok, it began we driving to the esplanade and cant find a slot in B1, so we went to B2. B1, the cars look so normal, i mean.. cars tat u can see at any shopping centers. However, as we proceed to B2, I was shocked!! Guess what they have over in B2? Cars! Cars tat u dont get to see very often. Cars like BMW 3 series, Posche, Beattle etc... its like, its a place for all the branded cars.. And I was just wondering how come there are such rich people around. Haha.

Anyway, back to the musical. Before the musical start,I feel like I was in another dimension.. THe surrounding of the theatre, the music when we 1st enter, the atmosphere.. Woah~! It feel so nice, and they are smart! They made that area a place where u cant receieve any signal on ur mobile phone. Haha.~ So that we can enjoy the musical. Well done!

Talking about the music when baby n I just enter. It captures our ears and also our heart. And we were commenting on how sweet it sounds like.. And I brought the CD! For a price of $25.. which is rather expensive for a CD. But for a piece of sound track that u cant get it anywhere or download for the net (Havent check it out, anyway i dun bother), I think its worth it!

I listen to that cd for the whole of sunday! haha..

Jan '06 - Engineers Formation Swimming Meet.
CHinese New Year

Feb'06 - Mum's Birthday
Biathlon Swim Trail (30 laps, 40mins) Currently my time is around 32mins -33mins
Valentines Day

Mar'06 - Dad's Birthday
Biathlon @ East Coast
Windsurfing Coast (not confirm yet)

hee.. I 'm lookin for all the way till march for now! hee..

DId u saw e news?

The lates news made me took a pain n hard decision. That is... to take down e music tt was formerly on my blog. With reference from Channelnewasia website

"We would encourage such bloggers to come to the one-stop centre to apply for the necessary licence. We are charging a rate of $1,000 for bloggers that does not exceed the usage of 10 songs."

I find it stupid and not practical. Paying money to get licence so that I can input music on my blog? Nah... Haven't they thought before this question - Where did they get the music from in e 1st place? Illegal downloads!

Haiz.. SIngapore, only wanna suck people money. But I'm a honest citizen. I don't break the laws. =) So, there goes my music. But i guess I would still post lyrics of songs that I like. Hope I don't need to get them licence(Someone pls tell me if i need to do so!). Haha..

Nightmare

I had a nightmare last night. Dreamt tt I was talking to Jean n chris. Told them why i decided to leave.. And I broke down in tears...

I cried when I told about how I lost my 2 friends. Very very good friends. I hated myself during their funeral. Hated myself for not spending enough time with them. Time & time again, I asked myself, why was I so stupid to do those "networking" stuff. Instead of going out n just spent some time with them.

I'm a cancerian, and i'm very emotional n semtimental. Today, u might just spent a day with me, for lets say 2hrs, and i will remember tt moment forever. Perhaps, its good, but perhaps, its not tt good.

Some people says,its good to not remember at thing of the past @ all and just move on, so that we can start everything afresh. But can tt be done?

I read this in my camp. "Our best diary - Memory" Meaningful isn't it?

I still havent got over with e departure of my 2 friends. I just cant take it althought I know I should. THe were like my big brother, taking care of me.. I still remember how Jiahui used to be e leader and orgainse everything. For example last year this time, he would call all of us, and say, "Ah, monkey.. chinese new year eve come my house and have steamboat together.."

I miss those days he called me monkey...

Well, like wat i always say to myself, got to move on... but haiz, e pace along this path seems to get slower, lonelier n also narrower..

But thankfully I still got baby around by my side whenever i need her. "Raining days, u will get very emotional n sentimentail" Thats wat she told me. =) Its true.

I'm still stressed by her, wanting to get Lacasa, tot its our dream place.. but given my situation currently, I cant take it... I'm just a NSF,not knowing what I'm doing everyday. Haha... 1 more year before I ORD. Tot I have made some plans, but I still have my reserves.

Nevertheless, I told my mum that I want to give her a good life. THerefore, I would strive... JUst give me so time. That will do.

2006, a brand new year, a brand new start. And I got a pretty nice chair, long stool? from IKEA. And I'm pretty happy with it. =)

I'm starting to appreicaite ART. I think that ART as in threate, musical, concerts etc, needs alot of time to prepare for it and its hard work. Tot its expensive, however, compared to watching a movie @ about $15 (inculding popcorn combo etc) per pax,around $30+ if I'm watching with baby. ANd going for a musically @ around $80-$100(pretty good seatings). I would choose the latter.

Because, ART its very original, you get to watch real! @ that very moment, u get to enjoy the feeling,the surronding, the ampotsherpe. And most important of all, those people spent a lot of time practisting for it. Whereas for a movie, u can easily download it from the internet. I'm not encouraging downloading of movie from the net but until something can be done 100% to overcome this problem of privacy, that's one revenue where u can get free movies, or, if u wan to really support original, wait for a few months, 2-3months max to wait for their vcd,dvd to be out in stores. ORiginal vcd cost $20max,or $5 for rental. ANd I'm talkin about original. For priated movies, u noe e prices.

Well, i never heard about priated Musicial, nor download musicial from the net. Anyway, i don't think its nice watching musicial from the screen as u can only focus on that area. I cant believe that I'm slowly moving into arts. Haha, and to think that I used to think that ART was a waste of time and for rich people.

No dobut its quite expensive, but I think it has its value. Anyway 2yrs back while wooing baby, i promised her that i would take her to see e musical,"Forbbiend City" by kit chan. hee.. why, i guess i changed my muscial after genting trip. We went to watch "xtreme" Its not a musical but the kind of settings and feelings is something... u need to be there to experience it.

Life is short, Enjoy the most out of it. Don't worry too much about money. Everyday, MAS is printing money. So, you cant earn ALL the money in the world, not even ALL the money of SIngapore. So, enjoy whatever u want to do. Don't regret it. DOn't betray yourself. Follow where your heart brings u to.

I told myself this, even if today I don't have money. I will lead the life of the poor. In the life of poor, I would save the very last bread for baby. If I have some money today, I will lead the life of e average people, I will make sure my baby has her fill. If I have money today, I will try to give watever baby wish for.

I'm contented when I see that smile on my baby face.