Double Impact

Today is childrens day, yet, while I am here blogging away, my very very good fren of mine is lying there in ICU, due to brain tumour. Chances are, he might never be able to wake up.

Why? I been thinking thru these few days... He's just 21 years old. He had yet to enjoy the taste of life, e fruits of his studies, e love of his recent gf, e warmth of a family. And he's lying there now, in coma...

I am not trying to bad mouth anything about SAF over here. BUt anyway, if SAF wanan charge me for wat i blog here, go ahead. Because, its YOU! SAF! U! U took away my 2 very most good fren in this life! And Because of you! I lost them! 2 Friends! Who could and might never be with me during my happiest times in life and my saddest times in life! WHo would enlighten me about life, who would teach me things like how a big brother would teach a younger brother!

You guys keep talking about safety 1st safety that. Buy do you guys really care about us!? I lost my very 1st friend because of this fucking thing called safety! And till date, I do not even noe wat the fuck happend!

And for god sake, this fren is super duper FIT! Hes' SOF!And yet, hes gone... Just like tat! Leaving behind his parents, n we frenZ!

And now, within 3 months, my 2nd frenz is now lying there in ICU!And it happened during guard duty!

Now, looking at all those tubes around him... I.. I.. I just cant see him longer... I cried. I cried badly..

He's my childhood frenz, my ex neighbour, my pri sch classmate, my basketball khaki, my soccer khaki, my supper brother, my brother.. He's... my fren, a good good frenz.

The kind of feelings when I heard abt it. My heart brokes. 2 cases, and it all happened because of U! Fuck UP SAF! DO u know that you took away 2 good frenz of mine! 2 guys who lost their lives because all they wanted to do was to protect the nation!

When we guys go to the MO for serious and truth medical reasons, ur fuck up MO thinks we trying to play punk, trying to kin our way to downgrade! FUCK! When we are realli sick, n yet u give us this kind of doubt, than wats the point of lying of lifes down! You tell me!

NOw, charge me if you wan coz i dun care! U guys never cared abt how we felt! ALl u guys cared was ur face, ur reputation to the public! Do u guys ever cared for us? Do u guys know How i feel!

I lost 2 frenz! ANd it all happened in ur fuck up organisation, ur so called, education-organisation! I say fuck u!

Do u know? we are not even 30, not even 25! But because of a "call of duty", does that means we have to lose our lifes because of it?

Do u noe? we are sons of a mother and a father, we have parents, we have loved ones, we have frenz, we have our interestes, we have our passions, we have Dreams, we have. we have alot more things that has yet to accomplise... but... because of this "call of duty", we gave them all up!

DO U EVER REALISE?!

watever gonna happen to our parents if we are gone? watever gonna happen to my girl? watever gonna happen to so many many so many ppl ard us? Wat abt our dreams?

This few days I am in a state of shock. I cant accpet. I just cant.

I cant imagine the worst. I cant. Because lying down there in the ICU is my good frenz, my best frenz.

God likes to play a joke on us. Really. WHy must u take away something from us when we are about to learn the truth of life? When we are turning into men?

I'm scared.